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Oh! just one thing!
PoV = Point of View
just saying if there's someone who doesn't know XD
When I'm with you
Warning!
This contains:
bad english
boyxboy
unexplained crying
random talk by people that never will pop up again
enjoy~ ^^
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Every day looked the same.
I woke up at 7am, ate breakfast, change from pajamas to casual clothing, and after that I head to work. My work wasn’t that very inserting, I was a waiter on a restaurant called ”Wall flower”. A really boring job but I got money for it, and sometimes free lunch. So I shouldn't be complaining for what I had.
But this was a while ago.
Now I’m unemployed because my chief thought I was to short to work there. I, my self, don’t get the problem about being short and work as a waiter, but obvious it is. So he fired me.
So here I am, sitting on the couch watching TV. Practically, I never leave my house except when I’m taking my dog Koron for a walk, go to the market or running.
I’m not complaining over my life, really! Actually, I’m like my life as it is. I don’t have to work and even though I get money, by playing in my band.
Everyone in the band have a special place in my heart, I was happy to play with them. But so we had a guy named Uruha on the guitar, there was something about him that made him special. But I don’t have a clue why.
So it was a pretty normal evening and I went out for a walk with Koron.
I decided to take a different way, so I walked to the bridge.
Uruha Pov
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I stood there, and gazed over the cold, black water. I’m surprised I came here at last.
Ever since high school I’ve never ben happy about myself. Always felt a hate against myself.
People tell me I’m a wonderful guitar player, they all tell me that I’m handsome, hot, sexy, funny and kind but I’m not with them. Everything in my life is a mess and I literally hate myself.
I sight and started to climb up on the rail. I just about to jump when I started to think of the vocal in my band. Fuck! Why do I always have to think about him when I’m doing something I now would hurt him? I don’t even like him in that way... I think.
I decided not to jump, so I just stood there and continued to gaze over the river.
”URUHA!” a familiar voice screamed.
The sudden sound made me jump, and the jump made me fall. I succeed with grabbing the parapet but my shoulders stretch. I screamed in pain but I didn’t let go.
I looked the way the sound had came from and saw a man running towards me, next to him I saw a small dog running.
”Uruha! What the hell are you doing!?” he screamed.
The man came to me, grabbed my wrists and pulled me up.
Ruki Pov
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As soon Uruha was on the ground I just collapse. I felt something heavy fall on me but I was to chocked and tired to care.
When I woke up I lied in a white, big room. There was something lying beside, something warm and pulsating.
I turned my head and saw Uruha, he was sleeping and had his arms around me. I didn’t remove his arms, afraid for waking him up, so I just stayed in the position I was in and looked at him. ”What the hell were you doing last night Uru? If you were trying to kill your self... why? I’ll never let you kill your self. Never!” I thought to my self as I gazed at the honey blond guy next to me. He was snoring lightly and as I stared at him I saw cow cute he was when he was asleep. I slowly turned around so I was laying on the side, unfortunately it made Uruha wake up. He slowly opened his eyes, he looked around with dizzy eyes. When he saw me he closed his eyes again and urned around so he wasn't facing me. I laid one arm around him and said
”Uru... is there something we need to talk about?”
”Maybe”
”Ok. I have to ask you something.”
”What is that”
”Why did you jump?”
”I wasn’t going to jump.” He answered.
”But you did. And if you wasn’t going to jump, why were you on the bridge anyways?” ”I was just looking on the water... and when you screamed, I got scared and jumped” I hugged him tight and I could feel how he started to shiver, and I heard he was sobbing.
”If it really was so, I’m sorry.”
The door oped and a voice said
”Looks like they’re still sleeping”
”Yeah. They should be happy that they didn’t die” another voice said. I lay still, Uruha held his breath to not make any sounds and I think it was for the same reason as I did it.
”Mmm~ Oi! Look at them, I think there together.” The first voice said.
”But it’s two guys”
”Have you ever heard about the thing called being gay?”
”Yes I have but”
”But what?”
”But I always thought that Uruha was straight.” I could feel how Uru tensed.
Uruha Pov
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’How the hell did they know my name? And why are there voices I don’t know talking about that we didn’t die, and that I and Ruki should be happy about it? Were we even close to die? If I remember right... Ruki saved me when I fell.’ I thought as I laid there.
The two men kept talking about me and Ruki, and they kept argue if we were together or not.
”But if you looked at them when they came in here they held each other and refused to let go.”
”Yeah but they weren’t really awake and they were almost freezing to death”
”They’re not freezing now and look, they hugging each other anyway”
Suddenly Ruki lift his arm from me and sat up
”OK! Enough with talking if we’re together or not! We’re not together, we’re just very good friends and if you don’t mind I would like if you two left the room now at the moment Uru and I have to talk.” Ruki screamed out the words without even breath. I turned around, sat up and looked at all tree. The two men had very chocked faces and Ruki was furious. They left the room and closed the door after them. Ruki slowly turned his head and looked at me with his eyes filled with tears. Ruki... I’m so sorry for all of this. I’m sorry that I’ve hurt you, it will never happen again. I promise. I wanted to speak but I couldn’t. As we sat there and looked at each other Rukis eyes became so full of tears that they ran over he's cheeks. I don’t know what flew in to me but I leaned forward and kissed he's wet cheek, I kissed away his tears. When I recognized what I actually was doing I pulled back and covered my face with my hands, blushing like crazy. I laid down again and turned around, Ruki grabbed my arms and forced me on my back.
Ruki PoV
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I placed myself on top of him so he wouldn’t turn around again. I took his head in my hands and looked at him.
My tears kept falling onto him but he didn’t say anything, he didn’t move, he just lied there under me and let his face become all wet.
I felt how my arms, back, legs became weaker and weaker for every second, at last, I fell to a pile on him. I forced my ams under him and hugged him, and surprisingly enough he hugged me back.
After a while when I had no tears left I looked up at Uru. He looked at me with his dark brown eyes.
”I was going to jump... but I change my mind, thanks to you.” he whispered and turned his head away from me and bit his lip, still hugging me.
”Every time I try to get rid of the pain, you always comes up in my mind. And if I now you would get hurt... it stops me from doing it. Because of you, I’m still alive. And because of you... I don’t know if I’m straight or not.” He pulled me up so his mouth was against my ear,
”I think I love you Ruki Takanori” he whispered. I lifted my head and stared at him with big eyes, I didn’t know what to say.
”Uhm... I... I need to go to the bathroom.” was all I came up with. I got of the bed, stood up and walked to the door witch I thought led to the bathroom. I was right, it led to the bathroom. Once I closed the door I , once again, fell to a pile on the floor and cried. This is to hardcore for my brain. First Uruha trying to kill himself, then people I don’t know talking of were together or nor and now this! ’I think I love you Ruki Takanori’... those words kept repeating in my head. I was confused and to make thing better, I realized that I didn’t know were I was. This made me cry even more and my head started to hurt. I crawled to the toilet and puked, it’s a bad habit I have to puke when I’m confused or sad, but it helps. I flushed, rinsed my mouth and wiped away my tears. I took a few deep breaths to calm down, and then I walked out to where Uruha was. When I opened the door and looked around I couldn’t see him, but when I saw him I went straight back to the toilet.
Uruha PoV
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I heard the door open, I looked up and saw Ruki standing there, but wen he saw me he suddenly went back and closed the door again. My head fell on to my knees again and I continued to cry. I had moved to a corner of the room where I now was sitting, hugging myself and crying. After telling Ruki the truth, I know that I love him. I didn’t just thought... I knew I loved him. It surprises me that I didn’t came up with it earlier, now it seems so obvious. I always have him in my thoughts, he stops me from doing bad things cuz I know it will hurt him if I do them. For me... it’s a pretty obvious sign that you love someone, it was just that I was to shy to accept the fact.
30 minutes past I Ruki still haven’t came out from the bathroom.
I had cried all the time, but now I took a deep breath and stood up. I walked to where Ruki was and nock on the door.
”Ruki... pleas open the door.”
”i-it’s o-open” he said sobbing. I opened the door and walked in. He lied on the floor and his cheeks was all wet and he was sweeting.
”I’m so sorry for all of this. I... I shouldn’t have said anything. I’m sorry” I said
”do-don’t be. It’s not only sorrow in my tears. It’s a lot of happiness to”
”How can it be happiness in it? I mean, I told you that I love you even though we’re just friends and I was about to kill myself and now we’re at the hospital”
”Are we at the hospital?”
”Yes. A doctor came in here and told me that a person had found us on the bridge half dead.”
”Half dead?”
”It was raining and both of us had past out and was half freeze to death by the rain”
”... WHER’S KORON!?” Ruki suddenly screamed. ” OMG!! I HAVE TO FIND HIM!” Ruki stood up and run out of the room, he was screaming his dog’s name.
After a while a small bark was heard and a little black and golden-brown thing was running towards Ruki.
”KORON! OMG! Thank god you’re save and alive!” A man was walking behind Koron.
”He was really nervous and aggressive when the ambulance arrived to you two, but he didn’t do anything but bark and growl... How are you by the way?”
”I’m fine. Just feeling a little bit dizzy” Ruki answered while burring his face in Koron’s fur.
”And you?” he asked and looked at me.
”I’m fine”
”Ok. So if you two want to leave the hospital now, it’s ok since you both seems to be fine. And if you want to we can call a taxi for you.”
”That would be really nice... or what do you think Ruki?” I asked Ruki who was playing with Koron.
”Yeah” he answered and it seemed like he didn’t knew what he was saying Yeah to.
”Ok, so I’ll call you a taxi and when it’s here I’ll come to your room and you can leave” the man said and smiled.
”Thank you” I said and bowed slightly.
”No problem.” he said and walked away. I looked at Ruki and squatted down beside him.
”Can we go back to the room? I still what to know how there could be happiness in your tears.” he looked at me, nodded and stood up.
When we came in I closed and locked to door, turned around and saw Ruki already sitting on the bed with his feet together. I walked over to the bed and sat in front of him.
”so... um... can you tell me how there was a mixture of sadness and happiness?”
”Well... the sadness is pretty obvious I think...”
”mhmm”
” but I’m happy to... cuz... I... I love you to” he said and looked down. ”Because you have always made me happy, and every time I see you my whole world becomes to a parades, and every time I look in to your eyes I’m filled with a feeling that makes my stomach feel like it was full of butterflies...” he looked down and seemed to be embarrassed.
Ruki PoV
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I wasn’t embarrassed... it was just so hard to tell him. Even if I knew he loved me I wasn’t sure how he was going to react. Uruha cupped his hands around me face and looked at me with those eyes I loved
”Are you embarrassed over that you love me?”he asked, looking dead serious.
”No...”
”Then why are you hiding your face? It’s not like I’m going to laugh at you or something sense I love you to.”
”And you’re not just saying that to cheer me up?”
”No I’m not you dumb ass! I love you! I always have... I was just to shy to accept the fact.”
”are you sure?”
”100 percent” then he leaned forward and kissed me.
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